Dear Marciano,
Nanay is turning 27 tomorrow. When I was young, about ten or so I have pictured myself having you by this.time (I was bound to get married to my Prince Charming by 25 anyway). But you know, as I grew older, my thoughts about being married and knocked up by 25 disgusts me. I mean, how can I get married and have a family of my own when I haven't established my career yet? I haven't travel outside the country nor have my own house and car. At 25, I haven't even found the man I will marry yet. So imagine my surprise when I found out that I have you inside me. My world turns upside down so fast and so many times that it took me some time to cope up. You were the biggest surprise I ever had. I really wasn't prepared and have planned nothing yet on what direction I will go through. For a while, everything was a blur. I was like a dead fish going with the flow.
During the whole pregnancy, I was mad at myself. I was mad for not being prepared for your arrival. I have so much plans for you that you'll definitely know soon enough. But the thing is, you made me realize that it doesn't matter that I will start from scratch on the spot. What matters is how I manage to collect myself again and stand on my own while holding you in my arms.
You gave me this peace and strength that I didn't know I can have just by looking at your face. You light up my life in ways even poets cannot describe. You gave me hope. And with that, I would like you to know that since last year, I stopped asking God for anything aside from Him keeping you and Lolo and Lola safe and healthy. You guys are what my dreams are made of. And I am so glad, that tomorrow as I turn 27, I am with all of you.
I maybe once empty handed with plans on which path we will take, but this is what I can assure you :
Wherever our fate takes us, YOU WILL ALWAYS HAVE ME. I will never, ever leave you behind and make you feel worth less of what you deserve. You are my life now, and everything that I intend to do, is always for you.
I am looking forward on celebrating my 27th with you <3
P.S. :
You can blow my candles tomorrow if ever I got one.
I Love You,
Nanay
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